More than a particle …

I really wish life came with an itinerary. A list of all the places we’ll be at, in our lives. 10 years back I would never have imagined that I would be where I am today, physically and mentally. So much has changed, and will keep changing. And now, I wonder where I’ll be next …

How many times a day do you think that? I had a long conversation yesterday about what one would do, if they chose to leave their present way of life. And I realized that I’m not the only one worried about where I’ll be few years down the line. How will I accomplish all that I want to? Will all my current plans work out or will life throw a new curve ball? In that case, will I have to start over once again? My uncle is hospitalized and it’s once again shaken me. Nothing can be taken for granted. I don’t want to end up being a particle in the sands of time. A million permutations and calculations run through my head 24 / 7, of what more I could do and how to better our lives. A few bright ideas aside, I’m deemed preoccupied and restless. This is not something new, but then of late, I somehow feel times running out and I need a jump start of sorts. I know I’m going somewhere, I just don’t know where. But then if I don’t know where I’m going, I doubt I’ll reach anywhere…

Is that the case with most of us out there ?! Moving randomly, searching for an aim. What would you rather being doing RIGHT now ?

About Aditi Wardhan Singh

I'm a mom living in Virginia, enjoying chronicling my various escapes with the kids and around the kitchen. I believe being a mom involves a balance of holding on and letting go. And since being a mom is a 24/7 job, cooking though essential, needs to be as easy as can be. So peruse my blog for various experiences in parenting and experiments in cooking.
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10 thoughts on “More than a particle …

  1. WOW very interesting post! ty for stopping by my blog too.

    I used to be like that abt 10yrs ago…worrying abt where my life is going etc. I planned my life so much. But guess what happened? Life came and showed me that it has it’s own plans for me.

    Now I live for TODAY only.

    All the best hun!

    Keshi.

  2. Firstly, sorry to read about your uncle however, I don’t know if my eyes are open or not, but I could feel my body being pulled into this post and I would rather be reading it right now. Reading this blog is progressive.

    Your post makes one realise the importance of living ones life in order to avoid any form of regret at the end…but is that possible, I mean is it possible to have no regret. I think there will still be that one thing that one would wish they had done differently, or not done at all or…

    It reminds me that life may well be a black tunnel, with light at its beginning and end and this makes me think of the question of what one would do were they to they that death had come to take them. It cause me to imagine whether at the end we may not consider all the things that we may have ever considered to be important not to be. Everything you had considered right to be wrong. Imagine the thought at the end suddenly realising that in the way you have lived your life, you have been very wrong. That the things and people (including the person you ended up married to) that preoccupied your time and the ordering of all that has been wrong and you cannot put your life right again, what then?

    Very deep. Have you read any books by salman rushdie? See you soon on red eyes

    thinking about it, I think one can can go on forever…

  3. Keshi : Thanks πŸ™‚ Well, I Am quite aware that it’s quite impossible to get Exactly where WE want to be, for life will surely have it’s own thoughts about it;) but then, living life aimlessly would also be kinda … ummm , for lack of a better word wasteful ?! Don’t you think ? I mean, how would one expect to get to a destination if they aren’t aware of where they are going ? πŸ™‚ Plans are just a guideline, I believe, just so that when LIfe does throw a curve ball , we are better prepared πŸ˜€ Cheers! Thanks for dropping by .

  4. Red Eyes : Thanks again for your thoughts. You are absolutely right ! We can’t possibly live life without regrets. Believe me, I’ve tried πŸ™‚ But it is possible, not to Dwell on it, isn’t it? For every action that we hope to have done differently, is merely a lesson in disguise. And if we learn from it, life is just that much better. As for mistakes that cannot be rectified, the only thing we can humanly do πŸ˜‰ is to WOrk towards a better tomorrow and make the Most of Today. HOpe n Faith are the cornerstones of our lives. All we can do is our best, and that’s all I wonder about. Am I working towards achieving my full potential, living life, loving purely, giving as much as I can, and using up all the moments as best as I can. πŸ™‚ What say ?

  5. Adisha, I think I agree with you although looking back at the very beginning and throughout the age’s faith, hope and humility have been described as the cornerstones of humanity. I am not saying we should stop cherishing those. Man has a natural thirst and hunger for knowing and believing. Perhaps it is those that make man human or should I say mortal.
    I am not saying it is not important for us to know and to believe but do you believe the focus of faith, hope, and humility is long overdue for change? Also, is our best always good enough?

  6. Our best is Not always good enough, but as long as we’ve tried our best, as the Least we have the satisfaction of having NOT done Nothing. Consider it similar to an Educated Guess. No matter how many permutations we apply, in the end is still a guess … πŸ™‚

    As for, do I believe the focus of faith, hope, and humility is long overdue for change? I think it’s quite the opposite. People need to bring it INTO perspective for as you very well put in Your blog,these days, everyone looks out for Number One. And it’s true, in today’s day n age, you have4 to look out for yourself, for no one else is going to do that For you !

    Sad state of affairs but if humility would just come back into fashion, people just Might start thinking about others …. πŸ˜€

    Keep the thoughts rolling …

  7. I would rather be swimming in the ocean right now. But as we have already come to conclusion in our separate paths of life. You must make the most out of what is in front of you. Sometimes the essence isn’t where you wind up or how well you are doing. Maybe it’s just in the simple fact of doing the best you can at every given moment and in every little thing (no matter how insignificant). Thus, all these instances comprise your life and therefore you are not wasting away in aimless direction.

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